Hearing the old Irish ballad
of how the man misses his woman
makes me realize
just how far away you really are.
Just the other day under the fine sun
we were laying together in the sweet grass,
but now you went home
and I'm going to bed once again alone.
I try to pass the days in dreams,
because in my dreams we are always happy with each other
I don't like it when you're not here
because then all you are is a memory
that I live in again and again in my head.
When you return to me
then I can really live in my dream.
Miss You
Please come back to me
and fill the empty place inside
Come back to me
help me be secure with myself again
Just your presence chases away
all dark thoughts and fears
I need you here
to reassure my dreams are worth fighting for
I miss you so much
without you my world is gray
When you are here
everyone seems so far away
My heart beats a sad lonely beat
whenever I go to sleep alone
I'll dream the most real dreams with you
only to wake up here alone
I long to run away from here
take you where we can know nothing
but our love for each other
I end this poem
looking at the stars we would admire
and wonder if you are do
Finding the words
to tell you how I feel
Seems to be as hard
as trying to catch the wind in my hands.
Just when it seems to fly from my lips
they are just replaced with a kiss.
And when it's about to roll off my tongue
you make my mind go completely numb.
You make me feel so good inside
and for some reason I don't know why
Is it because you laugh at my dumb jokes?
Or your touch that makes me feel so calm?
To explain how I feel
would take a language I don't speak
But yet you understand so well.
You really are such a mystery.
I am dreaming,
Dreaming of a place that is very far away
A place that is free from work and pain
I am finally with my sweetheart…
I awaken,
Unwontedly awakened to the real world of boring jobs and old routine.
Back to the grime of life.
When will it be easier to do the things I want to do?
I realize,
Finally that things are not as bad as it always seams.
Things could be worse then what it could be worse then what it could be.
I will not let the smaller things in life bother me.
I will succeed!
I am disappointed,
Now disappointed in myself for the last time.
As hard as I might try, I will never succeed.
I will never be great.
Few things I love in life
Most things don't catch my eye.
But when I saw you
I knew that I found love.
In that cute smile
And those dazzling eyes,
inspiration did I see.
And when you spoke to me
It was like time stopped itself
to hear what you had to say.
When you kissed me
my life at that moment changed.
I write this to prove,
you do inspire me.
Today is for dreaming
yet not for sleeping
My eyes are open
but I'm not awake.
People are all around
muted are their voices
Seeking something
still there is nothing.
Only light is here
so bright and blinding.
It comes close and
I feel such warmth
I am on fire
but not consumed
The fire does not take me
it is I who conquer it.
No more burden
being light
Feeling so young
so happy.
I wake from slumber
tired from a sprits journey
ready for a new day.
You always have that smile
full of love and joy.
You have such dark eyes
so easy to fall into.
Whenever I have a dark day
your always there to brighten up.
Whenever you laugh
my heart always skips a thump.
I love the way you blush in the dark
the way your face feels in my hands.
How you accept my touch
it's just the way you care.
Always so eager to listen
to whatever I have to say.
I give you this
so that I might make your day too.
Stepping off the road
the woods are so inviting
pine trees and bird songs
are all calling out to me.
I feel so alive
under the shade of an oak
while I watch the spider
make its new home.
I no longer feel trapped
to duties back home
I am free in this wilderness
Walking along I find
a nest of baby birds
and wonder if they chose
between the city and the forest.
Life sucks
but that's ok
Had a bad day
but I'll be alright
Worse can happen
and probably will
but I don't worry
cuz I have you
You help me through
the thick and thin.
When I fall
You take my hand
and help me up.
I just want to say thanks
for giving me love
when others hated me.
You showed me what I was
and I became better.
Thanks for making me change.
Now when things go wrong
I'll be alright
Your at my side.
Take my hand
and come for a walk with me
I will show the road to peace
Please, don't give up hope on yourself
all I can do is help you
find your road to peace
If you seek it
you shall find it
I'll be right here
and so will he
We can go to him together
and he'll set us both free
From all our pain
From all our grief and guilt
What we have encountered on our path,
all the dark side trails and tight spots
that doesn't matter to him,
as long as we go to him no
If not for my sake
then for yours,
Take my hand
and come for a walk with me
we sit so close beneath this shops dim glows
i could touch you, so i just wring my hands.
you say i reek of black coffee and cloves,
like unrequited love and foreign lands.
sad songs sung of girls lost in lov'r's eyes,
younger then, for such things i lacked concern.
these words birthed truth the day your eyes met mine,
those eyes so pure and bright they made me burn.
and their calm honesty still disquiets me.
i'm rooted where i sit and now i stare.
i languish, my pretense is deconstructing
hands still wringing, a love undying is bared
deep in chloroplast eyes all lies are shed
love twice reminded, he i cant forget
bleeding...
lies
carved into my body
lying naked and unseen
and everyone-
they have your face
cold eyes look upon
my scars unclean
screaming...
crying,
begging for help
to so many deaf ears
slowly dying
before ignorant eyes
i can't get up
no one will carry me
fading...
nothing
i've bled out my faith
only to hear a final
fragile whisper
"open wounds will bleed
until you choose to close them"
but i'm already lost
waiting...
stay...
i'm left to die alone
in this haunting crowd
with your impassive face
pouring crimson lies
i once told you to hide
now consume me in the night...
Current Residence: East Texas Favourite genre of music: punk, raggae, and folk Operating System: Windows XP Favourite cartoon character: Gabe from Penny-Arcade Personal Quote: I didn't want to be wierd, I just did't want to be the same.
Holy crap I've been gone a long time....
Well I'm online again, living in a new city, married, Free-lancing. Still in school though, I took a little break last year. Anyways, look foward to seeing old friends on here.
Cheers!
So many of my pictures made it into the paper that it's not even funny. Like I have so many, and everyone else just has one or two. Go me!
We're thinking about making an online paper as well, if we ever do I'll be sure to post a link so you can see my kick butt journalist photos.
The trip to Dallas was great, one of the best art I've ever seen in my life. And I made alot of new friends that sat next to me on the bus (the poor bastards). I posted the pics that I thought would kinda aply to DA.
In other news....
I'm going to post some more photo from some shoots that I did last month whenever I get the time.
I'm moving into the dorms at my school (save money on gas).
Working my ass off this week (had a girl quit on us and we're all taking up the slack)
My boss said I did a good job today (big deal, belive me)
And that would be all, please pray and donate/volunteer where/whenever you can to help all the Katrina e